Letting Go and Moving On

Today was a hard day.  I watched my husband, a man I have an incredible amount of respect for, stand humbly before a judge and in front of a room full of people and admit his guilt.  My heart hurt for him as I watched him stand there with his shoulders squared and answered all the questions put to him.  I wanted to take away his pain but I knew that he needed to do this, not only because it was the right thing to do but because he needed it for him to move on with life.

Today was hard but I also love and respect him even more now than I did before.  What was healing for him was also healing for me and today a little bit of my anger and hurt was also let go.

Our next step is sentencing.  It was scheduled for the day before Thanksgiving.  Our lawyer says that's a good thing but I wonder how thankful I'll be if he is indeed used as an example.  I can't worry about that now, though, I just need to put one foot in front of the other and get through one day at a time.

In other news, I am one step closer to my Michigan license.  All that the state needs is my Hawaii license verification.  With any luck, I'll be up in Ann Arbor by the first week in November and we will be one step closer to a more normal life.  I am still so scared about such a big change but I know it is for the better and in the end will be the best thing for us all.

So the theme of today is letting go.  Letting go of negative feelings and letting go of things out of my control.

Peace ☮