Things are not going very well right now for me and I am frustrated. I have a lot of options but I am so unsure which way to go. I've had many people tell me to stop pushing in this direction or that direction but I can't seem to reconcile it in my head. I mean, I could just sit here but I don't see how that would change anything. And, yes, I do believe in God and know that he will provide but I also believe that I have to do the work in order to get to where I need to be. How do I know when I am pushing to hard for something I want as opposed to what I need?
As I sit here in this moment, there are several options (or paths, if you will) that I could take in order to help make things better for my family. The problem is knowing which one to really focus on. I can't get really specific here, but in general I am referring to which direction I should be taking my career in order to a) better provide for my family and b) have less stress about work.
This is about how many options I have right now:
And while I am extremely grateful that I have so very many options, I have no idea which way to turn and that in itself is frustrating and stressful. I have spoken to trusted friends, my husband, and God. No one has given me any concrete answers. I do know that if I sit and do nothing I will not like where the current path is leading. I know this is all vague but I think you can still get the gist of what I am saying.
So, for today: I have done all I can do. Today is for me. I will run. I will play. I will try not to focus on all the negative things that have been happening lately and will instead focus on what is good. I really am a very lucky woman. I need to stop letting the relatively unimportant things weigh me down.
Peace! ☮
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